So today has been a struggle for me visually. My day starts at 4:30 am in the morning and hitting the yoga mat. I have to center myself before being a happy helpful and service with a smile. So a good session is when you hit a peak.(Some people call it focus, high, awareness..etc. I call it a peak.) Hitting a peak is when you can internally hear your body and feel everything that is moving. You know what parts are hurting and what things feel like they are on cloud nine. It is almost 5:30 and I am wrapping up my session then I am in the shower.
The shower is warm and I feel every drop of water in slow-motion. I can feel the air and I can feel the world’s pulse in the walls. I feel grounded and I am one with myself. I get out and then I brush my teeth. (You never know when a trigger sends you in to overload.) I have never enjoy how much i brushed my teeth than I did today it felt like I was brushing them with something that I can’t describe in words but it felt amazing. Then I brushed my tongue it felt like I was rubbing silk all over my body. Got dressed and then put on some body spray and deodorant. Then out the door.
Get to work and I see a woman. Fine right but then I blink she is tied up covered in rope. I blink again shake it off. Keep walking and another woman, clothes on, blink bare and ropes. So I was deep in my own thoughts and trying to get it under control so I don’t pull out my rope from my backpack.(Yes. I carry rope with me at all times if you don’t understand why you will never will until you have lived my life haha.)But calmed down and went about my day after my morning tea. No one tied up in a closet with an anal plug in them me toying with them. So going through the day I was able to manage my mind and not get myself all worked up. But I do feel the beast becoming ready for its next prey. Oh the little rope bunny when I do find one will be very happy with the pain I will inflict as I create a masterpiece with her body.